So would I be in another polyamorous relationship? I do desire, like, a husband and kids. I’m not quite sure that I desire a monogamous relationship, though. I don’t know. Monogamy just kind of like it doesn’t appeal to me at all. I know I don’t want anything traditional. There are so many different poly dynamics, and I feel like as long as me and my future husband cultivate an environment where we can be completely honest with each other, transparent with each other, then whatever we agree on will be. If we decide to be in another throuple, if we want to be kind of in an open situation or like a B, whatever, we decide what works best for us because we’ll just be honest with each other and be able to work something out.
Perfect situation
I feel like in the perfect situation, I could be in a throuple and perfection doesn’t really exist. Throuple for real? I don’t know. It would really have to be a good thing because throuples are hard. I don’t see myself actively speaking a throuple, but I could definitely do it if it was the right recipe. It takes a very special type of man to be able to be in a throuple with two women. I know for me, I’m bisexual, but I lean more towards liking men on the spectrum of bisexuality. So I need my man to be, like, giving a lot. He needs to have a lot of good qualities about him. I think if I were to be in another throuple and then my ideal woman, we just have to understand each other. Like, we’d have to get each other. Communication is important, but understanding and effective communication is the big thing. And I know in my last situation, there was always a disconnect and we never really understood each other. I feel like I would just need someone who’s really on my wavelength, who really gets me and gets my intentions so that there’s not, like, a lot of arguing, because whenever you’re in a throuple and the two women are arguing, everything is off. It’s just not a good environment. It’s very toxic to have the two women beefing all the time because our beef can last for weeks. And I’m not like a confrontational person, and I’m not really a fighter. So it puts a lot on my soul to be, like, a constant beef with someone. I just can’t handle it. So me and my girlfriend in that situation, we just have to really think and really get each other because I can’t do the fighting. It’s a lot. I do believe when I’m building a throuple or triad, having a pre-existing relationship is like, the foundation really does make a difference. So I do think that my ideal situation would be to have a husband and really develop a strong bond with him before embarking on the throuple journey. I don’t really desire joining a couple. I don’t know. I just don’t see myself joining another couple. I don’t know. But also, I’m not completely close to anything. I’ve just never really tried. I think that’s the main thing, though, in everything. I just want to let everything flow. And whatever is supposed to happen to me or for me, it’s going to happen. And I think that’s the beauty of everything. I don’t know what’s going to happen. I don’t know if I’m going to be in another throuple, but I’m not opposed to anything. I’m just ready for whatever is supposed to happen. And I’m excited because I know great things are coming. I do have a lot of work that I need to do before considering any type of relationship, let alone a polyamorous relationship. So, yeah, right now I’m not really ready for any type of relationship. But whenever I am ready, I know that I’ll be really ready and really be in tune and in sync with myself. In my last situation, I met my ex-boyfriend when I was 18, and I hadn’t even really gotten to know myself for real. I kind of put myself on the back burner so that I could please him in every way. And then we entered this really complex relationship, and now I don’t know myself for real. I’m in this crazy relationship, and I’m just kind of starting to grow into an adult. And it was just like a lot going on, and it was a lot, honey, it was a lot in that last situation that I was in because I just didn’t know. I didn’t know anything. I was young and dumb, and I still kind of am, but not quite as dumb. Smart. Yeah. I’ve never really been able to focus on myself, so that’s like, my main priority right now, and I’m really enjoying it. I’ve truly fallen in love with myself. So, yeah, I am dating myself. I’m in a relationship with myself, and I am confident that the next situation I end up in will be a good one because I will be whole, I will know myself, and I’ll just be like, a better partner all around. I’m confident in that. I know in the past, I have not been the most honest, and I have not had the most honest relationships due to other people not being honest, too honest. It’s hard to be honest. It’s not easy. It sounds easy to just be like, just be honest or just say how you feel, but that’s hard. And sometimes I don’t even know how to identify how I feel. I think with me being young and not really having time to focus on myself and work on myself, I didn’t even know how to identify my feelings or express myself effectively.
Moving forward
Would I be in another polyamorous relationship? I feel like I’m capable of loving more than one person. I’m not closed off to anything. I’m open to, like, whatever’s supposed to happen. So I think I could and if that’s meant to happen, then I’m open to it. But I don’t think I’m going to force anything. What I desire moving forward is just someone where I can be my complete and honest self. I just want everything to be real and honest and transparent from the job. So that, like, it’s a good situation. No one wants to be in a bad situation. Like, what’s the point? Not fun. Being in a bad relationship is not fun. It will have you literally having mental breakdowns, which I’ve had. I had plenty, and I haven’t had any since I’ve been single, so be single too. Being single is nice because I have not had a mental breakdown since I’ve been single. Yeah, I’m currently, like, really happy. I’m in a perfect space, mentally, physically, spiritually. I just feel perfect. And I know that I can be happy by myself and I love myself. So whatever situation I am in, I need to feel as good as I’m feeling or better. So, yeah, I will be single until I feel elevated by, like, another person. The whole person can make me feel even better than I feel right now. I think I covered everything. I hope this was helpful. Like I said, my communication isn’t the best, so I might have missed some things, or maybe this didn’t make any sense at all, but I hope it did. Thank you so much for reading. If you have any questions about my poly journey, feel free to leave them in the comments. Thank you, guys. Please share the article with your friends. Bye.
